Writing this post hours before our flight back to Manila. Well, I
didn't really expect nor foresee this thing will happen or I will have these
experiences I had for the past five months.
Last year, a little latter of February I got an invitation to have
an interview to one of the well-known companies in the Philippines. I got
excited and really had high hopes and prayed for it days before the interview,
but unfortunately I didn’t get in. I even call the company a couple of times
for the result because I’ll be leaving the country a week after the interview
but failed to get the results. So I left the country with an expectation which
causes me disappointment when I heard the news. I didn’t expect because I think
that I’m good or such, but I expect because our batch has a small number and thought that all of us will get in. However, it didn’t happen. So a week after knowing
the results, I had self-pity and thought that I was not good enough. I know it’s
not healthy so I prayed for acceptance and peacefulness. So while I was doing
my quiet time I read this verse:
For I know the plans I have for you,”
declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you
hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will
listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your
heart.
-Jeremiah 29:11-13
Then I realized that I shouldn’t feel disappointed
because I am victorious in a way God designed me to be, I just didn’t know in
what way yet. So instead of crying over it and hurting myself more, I had a
leap of faith and believed that God really does have a plan for me better than
my thoughts could imagine. I was so sure that He has something for me in the
future I shared it to our church in KSA leaving them a thought that “Everything
happens for a reason and the reason is that God is preparing you for something
better.” Then four months after that incident, our college department had
a student exchange program. However, it
is only offered to students who are taking Thesis 1 and that time I am a term
late for Thesis 1 and I have big commitments in my organizations so I didn’t
really bother trying to ask if I could join. But four weeks before the term ends,
kuya Patrick PMed me if I’m interested with the exchange program because
someone who has the same case as mine will join them. And as an initial reaction
I said no because of my commitments but then I had second thoughts and told him that I will think about it.
My decision of joining them or not is
crucial for me and also for my co-officers. For me because I know that I have a
big responsibility that will be left if ever I go and I made a petition to
myself that I will do my best to serve the student body since I think it will be
my last academic year and for my co-officers because if ever I leave, one way or
another, someone must temporarily fill in my space for the whole
group to function. I really had a hard time to finalize my decision. I consulted all the people I know who is wise enough to give me advices and
thoughts for me to ponder that could help me select the best choice and also
consulted my co-officers if they will allow me to join. And thank God for those
people who supported me and told me that whatever my decision will be they will still be on my side (special mention to the IE-EMG Student Council and to my family).
So the result is I said yes 3 days after kuya Patrick asked me since the
list of students who will join the program is being asked for
finalization.
Every decision has its own consequences,
so aside from the people and commitments that I will be leaving I also needed
to finish 3 company studies and take all my final exams a week
earlier the term ends making my last 3 weeks in the Philippines “super-faith”
weeks. HAHAHA! Yes! "Super!" Because if ever I fail in one of the subject that is
pre-requisite to Thesis 1 I will not be able to join the program. With all
the grace and strength given to me by God, I was able to come to Chung Yuan
Christian University in Taiwan (Yehey!). This opportunity made me realize that if ever I passed the interview and had my internship done last year's summer, I will not have the international experience I just had. Blessing in disguise? No, more of an intervention.
And now the five months internship is over
where we all finished our thesis and even surpassed the said requirements that
we need to pass with excellence plus experiences that no money can buy and no
person can steal from us, I can say that this is really better than doing my
internship in the company that I was looking forward to have it. And I am
really thankful that God is faithful. All these things that I will be
bringing back home, the new found friends, the Taiwan culture experience, the
sleepless nights and no ligo days all for the sake of a good write up
and high grades in the graduate class is worth it. It was not easy and I could
have never made it if He is not with me. Again, I will testify that He has
better plans for us indeed. We may not know what is it yet or when it will come
but just keep the faith and all will be fine.
So for all the people who also prayed for
me and made this possible, especially to our dean who believed in our
capabilities, THANK YOU! And for the people that I left, my Mapua CSC family,
IE-EMG SSC family, MixmaxPh customers, and my biological family, my success is
your success!
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| When all our hard works paid off =) |
