Confession

Everyone of us has a standard we set for our partners-to-be. It is sort of a foundation built to protect us from heartbreaks and keeps us from being with the people we really don't want to be with. However, some time in our life we compromise a little and little did we know we've compromised a lot. Then the only thing that will matter is the sincerity and purity of your love for that person.

We usually tell our friends they deserve better whenever we see them mistreated and unappreciated. But have we ever tell that stuff to ourselves whenever we are in that kind situation? Of course we did! The problem is, we never listen. We never listen because somehow the happy memories are still dominant than the bitter memories. We never listen because we have told ourselves that this is the last love we would ever have. We never listen because we already gave everything we've got and we feel that we don't have anything to lose anymore so we just wait until we are totally drained. We just wait until we realize that literally, we have nothing to give because we stop taking care of ourselves. Where in fact, we could have totally save ourselves from that life-wrecking breakup if we were a little obedient to what our mind is telling us.

Love is so magical that words are not enough to explain it. It gives you chills, it gives you butterflies, and a whole lot of blood rush. It feels so good that what we do is basically based on what we feel. But our hearts are also so deceitful. It is ironic that every heartbeat indicates that we are still alive but every feeling that we entertain from it can also cause us death; mentally, emotionally, physically, and even spiritual death. It has the power to take the sanity from us if we let it take over, but it also has the power to bring it back if managed carefully.  

So I'm going to make this short confession and I know most of us are guilty about in this kind of situation. So somehow somewhere in front of your monitor or cellular phones, I want you to confess this with me to yourselves:

"Dear (your name),

I'm sorry for causing you too much pain. I've taken you for granted. You have already set your standard in the first place but I never listened. I got too caught up with the love bug and all of its rainbow feelings. I never realized that I was destroying you. I've destroyed your ability to trust and ability to believe that true love exists just because of the excruciating internal pain that you have felt or still feeling right now. I've cheated on you. I should have listen. I'm sorry. I promise to never do the same mistake again.

Sincerely,

Myself"

Okay, it is weird doing that. I admit. But the point is, you can never blame other people on the pain that you have just felt especially if you already have all the flashing red signals in the first place. You decided to go for it even if it says stop. You decided to let them in. You decided to trust them even if you know that you shouldn't. It was all your decisions. But past is past, forgive yourself and move on. It's just a bad experience not a bad life. Life is what you make it. Just remember, before you can forgive yourself, you must admit that you have made the mistake. Be firm next time. You didn't make those standards for no reason.

Xo,
Athena